Chapter 19
Lola’s POV
No, he couldn’t have found me. I escaped him, I finally left that pack and its people behind and I won’t be dragged back there by Grayson.
I did not know when my cutlery fell out of my hands and I started hyperventilating.
The room was getting smaller, my breaths were coming out short and erratic. I felt like my lungs were being compressed and squeezed. I felt liquid run down my cheeks but I could not even wipe them away. My whole body was numb and I could not react to everything going on around me.
How did he know I was here? I masked my scent, he didn’t even know I have a wolf, nobody knows except the people of Crescent moon pack that saw me enter the pack lands in my wolf form.
I felt small, soft hands around me but that did nothing to comfort me. I started crying harder, I held my chest since it was getting difficult for me to breathe through my tears. I don’t like this feeling, I already left it behind.
“It’s okay, Lola. Calm down please”, I heard Rose’s voice, but I could not react to it even if I wanted to. My body was in shock and everything in my body seemed to not work.
Electricity spread through me and I felt a surge of peace throughout my body as larger, more callous hands held me.
“Hey, it’s okay. You’re okay, Lola”, I heard my mate’s amazing voice and I slowly calmed down. He held me as my body continued to shake even though I wasn’t crying as much as I was initially.
“Oh my goddess, mate is holding us. His voice is so amazing and his touch, oh his touch. I was so jealous when he said your name, I wanna hear my name too. You lucky, lucky, extremely lucky human”, Jasmine gushed in my head as my shaking subsided and I could finally breathe again.
“Jasmine!! How are you focused only on the fact that we’re being held by our mate? He doesn’t even want us, he’s probably just being nice that’s all. And Grayson is here in this pack to take us, how are you so chill right now?”I screamed at her in anger in my head and heard her whimper but I wasn’t having any of her fangirl acts at that moment.
As soon as he realized I had stopped shaking, he dropped me like my skin burnt him and I felt Rose take me into her arms, telling me how everything is fine and I’m safe.
I wanted to scream out that I wasn’t safe as long as Grayson was around. I wanted to spill everything that had happened to me to Rose but shame wouldn’t let me. The fear of being abandoned and blamed like my former pack did made me shut up and fry silently. 2
I sent a quick prayer to the Moon goddess. I know I had been cussing her out since I turned 18, but I was starting to feel like I belonged to this pack and I did not want to be pulled out of it again.
Rose led me to the couch and then brought me a glass of water. Her motherly eyes never left me, she was watching me like a hawk incase I had another breakdown and that made me feel warm and fuzzy inside.
“Jasmine? Girl, I’m sorry I snapped at you just before. I was scared and angry too. Scared that Grayson will take us, scared that Adrian will hand us over to him without even hearing us out. I’m still scared that might happen. I was angry at myself for finding comfort in Adrian’s arms too, he hasn’t even acknowledged us as his mate, I did not want to give myself false hope. You chose the wrong moment to be a fangirl. I’m really sorry, Jas”, I pleaded to her in my head, I knew I hurt her when I yelled at her earlier.