Chapter 450
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SEBASTIAN.
Life really does change a lot, but one thing I learned was to always communicate, never jump to
conclusions or take life–changing decisions on your own. It cost me precious years with Zaia, and it
caused her so much heartache. But that was a lesson I learned too late when I had
almost lost her.
I had lost her, had to stay away from her to give her the time she needed, without knowing if I’d ever
get her back.
No matter how much I do, I’ll never be able to make it up to her. Until this day, sometimes I can see
things getting a lot for her. But instead of saying she’s having a bad day and needs a break, she will
carry on, so used to dealing with everything by herself. But I’ve learned to pick up those signs, so I can
intervene and give her that break without her having to tell me.
That’s something I saw over dinner with Valerie and Zade. I’ll never admit it, but he’s observant of what
she wants and needs and does things in a way she doesn’t even realise and without suffocating her
and being overbearing.
I always wondered why Jai chose her. I didn’t think they were compatible, but love works in a way
unknown to man. I don’t think Zade and Valerie are compatible if you look at their upbringing and
backgrounds, but somehow, they just… go.
And it hurts to see she’s far happier now than she ever was with Jai. They clashed a lot, there was a lot
of bickering, and he didn’t know how to handle Valerie’s temper.
I had heard the commotion earlier when one of Zade’s pack members left but didn’t bother going down.
However when I decided to go ask Atticus what happened I hadn’t found the fool, but I did end up
hearing the conversation between Valerie and Zade.
One I shouldn’t have, but my hearing has always been better than most. It wasn’t like it was intentional.
I keep my presence masked as Zade exits the room. He pauses, and I wonder if he picked up my
presence. I wait until I hear his quiet footsteps recede, frowning when I don’t hear anything else.
Where has he gone?
I step out from behind the pillar, wondering what way he went. I glance towards the steps just in time to
see his shadow disappear down the hall. I follow quietly, seeing the back door shut.
I frown for a moment. Should I even bother? Frowning, I push away the doubt, knowing what both Zaia
and Jai would want even if I dislike him for everything he has done. My wolf stirs, making my brows kit
together tighter as I pull open the door and look around.
He’s gotten away!
I run my fingers through my hair when I hear the flick of a cigarette lighter, and I turn to see Zade sitting
on the ground at the side of the building. He lights his cigarette before taking a drag on it.
“You’ve gotten rusty,” he remarks, not looking at me.
“Yeah, I don’t think I have, I sensed you,” I refute, although I hadn’t sensed him. I am not planning on
admitting to that.
“What do you want? Shouldn’t you be in bed with your woman by now?”
“I could say the same to you, yet you’re out here.” I shoot back.
His frown deepens as he continues to smoke his cigarette. “What I do is none of your concern, “he
answers quietly, but even I notice the edge from his normal attitude is missing. Walking over to him, I
nod my head towards his cigarette.
“Got a spare?”
Not answering, he takes the box out and tosses it at me. I catch it, taking a cigarette out before he
holds the lighter up, flicks it on, and lights it. I nod. “Thanks.”
We fall silent as I take a seat on the steps a few feet away from him.
“So, leaving her after she shares something like that? Not exactly smart,” I remark, taking a drag on the
cigarette.
“Eavesdropping? Not exactly smart either,” he counters.
Dick.
“Look, I’m not here to say do this or that, but what I will say is don’t fuck up things because of your own
insecurities. She doesn’t deserve that.”
“I don’t think you really care for what she wants.”
“Believe it or not, I do. She’s always been there for Zaia, thanks to everything the Sable tried, I
abandoned Zaia right when she needed me the most. When she was pregnant with our twins …” I look
down at my hands. I’ll regret what I did even if I was trying to do it for the right
reasons.
“Yeah, well, I’m not abandoning her. I wouldn’t do that.”
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“But if she’s pregnant? And she refuses to get rid of it?” I ask.
He remains silent as he stares unseeingly ahead. After a few minutes, I don’t think he’s going to reply
and I’m about to get up when he speaks.
“You saw me as a Sable, you know who I am,” he tells me quietly.
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Yeah, there was Gaultier, the sadistic, unhinged psycho… I saw him kill and torture people. And then
there was Zade. Cold, calm, and calculating, his torture and methods were far more chilling than
Gaultier… there was just something about a calm killer than an unhinged nutcase
Maybe he’s changed, but I wouldn’t leave my kids in the same room as him knowing what he’s capable
of… unless he’s on their side…
I sigh heavily. “What I saw was survival. The power and resilience to survive no matter what. We all did
things whilst we were there, and you were there longer than us all… Don’t let your past fuck up your
future, and if you’ve chosen to be an alpha, then you’re going to need to make an heir at some point.”
“Maybe.”
“Talk to her.” I stand up, glancing down at his emotionless face, but he remains staring ahead. He
always was hard to read… I’m about to head back inside when I pause and glance back at him. I’m
doing this for you, Zaia… “Zaia always had faith that there was good in you. Don’t let her faith be in
vain.”
“She’s delusional,” he replies quietly.
Think what you want. There’s got to be something that both of them see in you. And although women
are crazy, delusional and hard to understand… they are often right… 2
Shaking my head, I put out my cigarette; my work is done here. With one final glance at him, I push
open the door and step inside… >
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